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Faceless Ardor

There are certain part of time when a boy finds something he likes...whether it is a dream, possession, achievement, or maybe a girl...everyone finds that time yesterday, now, tomorrow, or any other day would be perfect...what I'm gonna tell you is not a sad story...or a love story...or a happy one...I couldn't even say it i a story...wondering why? read along...and you'll be longing forever...

it was any other day...because it is unlike the other...things happen knowingly and unknowingly...it was the day before new year...hours before the eve...when a fire broke out from the 2nd floor of our house...without us even noticing it until one friend of ours rushed in...panic was all around the house...as for me...I felt motionless...still we got out of the house...watching the scene of a fire swallowing our house alive...my father came...with his hair all soaked and you could still see the apron that you wear while having a haircut...he was like batman in his black cape...but couldn't do anything with the fire...the fire truck rushed into the street...and quickly dosed the flame...from vicious to kindled...I could hear other neighbors saying it's not a loss...they have insurance I'm sure...well...I wish we had...I just wish we had...

few minutes after the fire...I was busy telling my good friends that I'm okay and there's nothing to worry...suddenly a girl approached me telling,

"O parang di kayo nasunugan ah! patxttxt ka lang jan"

I didn't notice her at first...

"Dba kayo ung may ari nung bahay na nasunog?", she continued.

I was a little irritated at that time because of that question and I looked at her fiercely...then she told me that I'm snobbish and arrogant...well...she was a girl so I apologized...we talked alot after that...talk about knowing each other ironically...anyway she accompanied me all that day...just then, I looked at her...I dont know if it is what you call love at first sight..she was beautiful...my heart beats faster and faster...she gave me her number so that we could talk even when I'm inside the house...

We cleaned the house and luckily our 1st floor was spared...lucky huh...anyway...we cleaned the house full of ashes and smog...and thats the first time we all worked as a team...after cleaning the house I went outside again for some air...there I saw her again with her cousins...she told me that I look sad so she asked me to join them...and so I did...after a while we went to a store to buy some food...on our way back...we were talking and she wasn't paying attention to the things around her...suddenly a 5-star was accidentally thrown in her front without her noticing...of course being an alert and trained kind of man...hehe...saved her before it exploded...after that she thanked me and her cousins told her that I am her hero...haha...hai...I enjoyed the night as if the fire didn't happened at all...that was the greatest day of my life...still...

It was new year...I woke up reading the messages in my phone...she texted me...she was on her way back to her province...and telling me that she didn't want me to be disturbed so she didn't told me that night...days passed...and we still texted each other...we also talked in the phone...and our school foundation is fast approaching...so I invited her...and there I decided that I would ask her if I could court her...yes...I fell in love with her...real hard...I went to her province to fetch her...there I met many...hmm...obstacle I would say...hehe...her mom...tito...lola...they were all bullying me saying that could I take care of her...protect her if something happened...I was like in suspect of murder being interogated by police officers...phew...it was the longest hour of my life...and I managed to find myself not guilty! hehe...anyway...while we were in the bus...i felt so weary after that interogation...i leaned in her shoulder and fell asleep...when I woked up she told me that people were staring at us and telling we were a lovely couple...man, I was so ashamed that time...but still had the time to laugh about it...and the more I fell in love with her...again....

We went to my school to watch a concert...with a chaperon...tama ba?...anyway... I saw the school garden full of tiny lights...its like a star swaying with the trees...there I would tell her...I told myself...It became harder for me to tell her how I feel...my classmate saw me with her and many liked her...because she as beautiful...I felt a little jelous...telling inside my mind that, back off! she's mine...but I just smiled at them...hai...the concert was lame and soooooooo boring...so we didn't finish it...we were walking along the kiddy rides that the school presented...and we noticed that many people also left the concert...my friends knew what I was planning that time...so they distracted our chaperon...tnks guys!...and so I asked her if we could walked around...alone...we were on our way to the garden...and great...the lights are already closed!...talked about plan against time...so...we were on our way back...there I pulled her hand and told her that I wanna ask something...

Ano un? she asked...

I was so blank...I dont know how to start...I could even say the first word of what I'm gonna ask! argh....

Uhm...pe....pe....pede...., I nervously started to speak...

ano nga un?

pede...pede ba....pede ba...ki...kitang..., I continued...

she was a little irritated because she cannot the understand what I was saying...and she started to walk back to where my friends are...that time I pulled her hands again and looked straight to her eyes...all became weird...its like a slowmo...something you see in a romantic movie...and there I told her,

Uh...pede ba...kitang...ligawan?

there! i said it! phew! all that scene just for that line...she looked at me for quite a while and asked me...

"sure ka ba?"

"oo naman!" I answered...

"bakit?", a one word question that riddled many answers...

"eh d naman kailangan ng rason para mahalin ka eh...", I answered back...

"Bakit nga?"...she was longing for a real answer...well that was my real answer...but I know she wouldn't listen...

"Maganda ka...matalino...magaling sa sports...magaling sa musical instruments...mabait...at pinapasaya mo ako..."...that alone says it all...she was a perfect girl that I didn't even dreamed off...she smiled at me and told me,

"oo naman"

silence conquered the scene...and it said it all...I was so happy...and hurried back...my friends knew...and we were happy...sorry...d ko madescribe sa ibang paraan eh...hehe...days passed again...I vist her everytime I am free...though it was a long way...I knew it would be worth it...

it was valentines day...I wanted to suprise her...I texted her that I'm alone...and gonna stay in the house after school...I went to the faculty room...there I snatched 5 balloons from the tables of my teachers...hahaha...at least may effort!...anyway...I was so mad arguing with the guard in lrt...he told me I couldn't go in unless I leave the balloons...so I loosed the air of the balloon and put it in my bag...another flaw to my plan is I don't know her address...so I searched for it all afternoon...it was dark when I reached their place...grr...it was as if things really doesnt want to go in my way...argh...anyway...I saw her alone...cooking...and I sang...yeah yeah...nakakahiya...err...she was more shocked than suprised! hahaha...my hidden talent...should still be hidden forever! hehe...all i could give her is only one balloon...btw...its shape is heart...back to the story...I wrote in the heart, "This is my heart...and I'm giving it all to you"...romantic ba? hehe...she was so happy I could tell...even though I couldn't give her expensive and fancy stuff...I make sure what I give to her is priceless...beyond all things man could afford...I was about to go home...she told me that I should give her a goodbye kiss...so I did...in her chick...and so I also told her to give me a goodbye kiss to...and she did...more than what I've done...parang ako pa ung babae tuloy...phew...it was all worth it...really worth it!!

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uh...d ko na itutuloy...medyo sumakit dibdib ko ule...hai...nagpost ako sa wala...anyway...maybe next time...matutuloy ko na...i hope...sorry...hindi ko iisipin na magsultat kung d namin pinag-usapan ang isang bagay...tnks to Bambi and Francis! err...

"The night fell at8:50 PM"
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Its an easy life out here...

the title of this post doesn't take part in a positive way of living...midterm week has just passed and I got my results...I was always ranked in the top 5 in the highest scores in all subject...well...except in Stats...Y_Y...anyway...my surfing the internet, dota, watching tv, eating, and sleeping has finally paid off! talk about challenges...I didn't study during that week...still relying in my greatest kind of knowledge...the STOCK!

i feel so down...

i think of my current school teaches me old stuff...the high school stuff...compared to what I hear from Addi and Francis...they endure the hardships of a real college student...while I'm here in my bed of roses...enjoying the vanities of technology...

then again...I should be happy...of course I would prefer relaxing rather than studying...sooner of later I would experience much hardship than those of my friends...and when that happens...

HELP ME!!!

"The night fell at10:58 AM"
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