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That's all I ask of you...

You know you're close to me...

You know I can smile without you...

I can sing without sing without...

Can love without you...

Can laugh without you...

But still...

You know I can't be me without you...

I ask favor very seldom...and I ask it seriously...but once you promised me you'll do it...i dont know...somehow i know that promise would be broken...still it doesn't bother you...thats all i'm asking...please say no if you have to...you know it hurts me when you say no...but still it hurts me more when you say yes...still in the end...you'll say no...somehow i'm expecting it to happen...maybe i just expected it too much...that i myself can't take it anymore...i dont want to say that your insensitive...but from what your showing...you're worse than that...i dont deserve your sorry...because i know its half meant...i know you hate saying sorry to people...especially the close ones...just because your pride becomes shallow...heck...who cares about your pride being shallow and shallow...what about the feelings of others? have you considered them more to yourself?

I was expecting you this special day for me...Dont worry...I'll still smile this day...I wont spoil it...I'll make it the best day without you...

"The night fell at6:15 AM"
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Turning Seventeen...

I am boy facing manhood...

Fears nothing but change...

As time pass by...

As the world change...

for better...

or worse...

I will still be me...

Still the same...

Still Ramch...

This coming Monday I'll face another year of my life...another mystery and misery...sweet sixteen...never been kissed nor touched...so they say...it depends on the person...I guess...As for me, I dont know...i feel sick...i i feel sick and tired...I've always felt this way..it might not look like i'm sad and lonely...heck why should I let them know how miserable I feel...God has done everything for me not to feel this way...I thank him fo that..I really do...but still...I've been given freedom to choose what I feel...and I choose to be miserable...how stupid of me...but i want to continue loving someone who I know I cannot be with...well at least I want that person to feel that I exist...I'm staying...everyday I'll look at my fone...waiting for the person to text me...at least i know taht person cares...and misses me...I'm still waiting...well, Im used to wait...all this time I've been waiting...that person is worth my while...that person is worth my life....Turning seventeen...I dont feel like it...Aging 18,19,20...does it matter? what difference does it make...Life for me will always be miserable...but heck...it's fun...it's worth my time...

"The night fell at10:48 PM"
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Life has shown...

Life has shown me beauty

It has shown me love

Next is its passion

Lastly its pride

But all of these are nothing

to a man who lost his life

Taken by death?

Nay

Captured by sorrow

Conquered by solitude

Tell me now what to do?

Where to go?

Still I hide from the reign of darnkness

Nevertheless imprisoned by the night

Come what may unfortunate fate

For my life is already taken

What more will you take from me...

"The night fell at10:31 PM"
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Alone in a Crowd...

Is this my fate?

To be alone in a crowd

Who seeks no friend

Nor one love

As time pass by

I feel no change

Still a man

Who never olds

But always lie

Did God cursed my fate?

And closed the gates

Which has no key

For a vanquished man

I waited days

I waited nights

I felt a chill

Yet not cold

Am I dead?

Or do I only want to die

Tell me why

Share me life

For I am Alone

Alone in a crowd...

"The night fell at10:21 PM"
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